Corazon de Swiss

January 2, 2008

It’s over…

Filed under: Cheesepuff,Love & Relationships,Ringwatch 2007 — by corazondeswiss @ 6:15 pm

Ringwatch 2007 that is. 

BECAUSE HE PROPOSED!!

I am happy to announce that CP asked me to marry him on December 30th.  And of course I accepted. 

We went to the Morikami Gardens in Delray Beach and walked around.  (CP tells everyone that I forget to tell the part about how he chose it because there were waterfalls…which is a kickback to our first date when we went for a walk in the park to see a fountain at night and it wasn’t flowing even though it had been when he checked earlier. I digress.  Back to my story.) So he suggested we sit down on a bench for a bit.  And we did.  We looked over the lake and we could hear a little boy yelling “Get back here!  Get back here!  If you know what’s good for you you’ll get back here!”
After it quieted down, CP said “You know it’d be good for me if you’d become my wife”, as he was getting down on one knee.  Of course I said yes and he put the most beautiful ring on my hand. 

WE’RE ENGAGED!!!

Things I found out later:
He had called my parents’ on Wednesday and was a little surprised when I answered the phone, so he played it off.  And called on Friday after I had left to see him to ask for their blessing.  He had talked to his parents over Christmas.  He had been shopping for quite some time and hadn’t told a soul until just before he asked me!
When I talked to him on Friday from my hotel, he told me to sleep in Saturday morning and take my time getting there.  (My original plan was to get up early and get going.)  But he had to pick up my ring on Saturday morning!  And he wanted a haircut. 

We’ve had the best time sharing our joy with our family and friends! 

June 4, 2007

Vices

Filed under: Ringwatch 2007 — by corazondeswiss @ 7:34 pm

So, assvice vs. advice.  My last post seems to be bringing down the house with number of views, etc.  While I appreciate all the readers, I found that the comments on my last post seem to reflect some of the people in my world outside of blogging.  I suppose it happens to every blogger- I know it has happened to some of the bloggers I read.  I really struggled with whether to post it- I kept it close to my heart for a while because I felt so good about it.  But it seems as though even in the blogging world I  feel as though I have to defend myself, relationship and choices.  So I will try to respond to those commented wishing to be helpful. 
First, I appreciate the thoughts and well wishes.  As for the other things, seriously you’re not writing/thinking/saying anything I haven’t thought.  That someone in my life hasn’t already said. 
Have I read “He’s just not that into you”?  No.  And I’m not planning to do so either.  Thanks for the recommendation for a book you haven’t read either.  Honestly, I don’t think our relationship would have survived the distance it has, for the amount of time it has if he just wasn’t that into me or if I just wasn’t that into him.  He sure would not have taken vacation time, driven 500 miles one way and spent 3 nights on an air mattress if he wasn’t that into me.  I know I wouldn’t do those kind of things for him if I didn’t love him.  I don’t need a backup plan.  To me, having a backup plan is just inviting things not to work out.  If things were to not work out, I would deal with them at that point.  But after 4 years of dating and having actually asked CP if breaking up was what he wanted I’m not going to begin a backup plan now. 
The 12 month plan seems great in theory- if in the first 12 months of your relationship you’re not both in school.  I know that works for some people, but that didn’t really work for us.  Again, thanks for the  well wishes. 
I’m well aware that men do and say all kinds of things when they feel backed into a corner.  I feel as though I have done everything I could to avoid that for CP.  When I felt he offered me a paltry excuse, I told him that.  I’m an upfront person.  Always have been.  For the eight years he’s known me.  First as my friend, then as my best friend and my love. 
The conversation we had on the beach was not about if we will join our lives- it was about the logistics of joining our lives- the where, the when, the how.  And while I’m a big picture person, CP is the detail person.  He’s worried about the minute to minute detail of what we’ll be doing tomorrow- I’m worried about what our general plan for next month.  That’s how we work. 
Thanks for the well wishes, the good thoughts sent mine and CP’s way. 

June 3, 2007

Going through the ring-er

Filed under: Cheesepuff,Love & Relationships,Ringwatch 2007 — by corazondeswiss @ 8:17 pm

So, I’ve been digesting the conversation that CP and I had on the beach last week. (Getting hellacious sunburns in the process, despite application of sunscreen. Which is now peeling and itchy.)  However, the conversation was worth the sunburn. 
We had been out and played in the water, talked about small things when I decided to bring the subject up. 
I not so subtly segued into the subject.  CP was a little confused at first, but he caught on quickly and said what might possibly be my least favorite word in the whole english language: Soon.  I reminded him that he has used that particular word a few too many times.  Then he uttered the phrase that is a close #2 to soon: I know. 
However, the conversation continued on from there and CP told me he had been looking into jobs here for him, and jobs there for me.  I reminded him that I would go to PBG, but that I do not want to live there for the rest of our lives.  I’d like to live close to my family.  My parents are not moving.  Ever.  I’m not saying we have to live here exactly.  Or even forever.  Somewhere close by would be fine.  There are advantages to living here- esp. once we have children.  My mom would keep the children if I decided to go back to work, full or part time.  If we didn’t live here, I might definitely have to work full time. 
CP thinks that we might be better off to live in PBG and buy a house there because we’d make more money on resale of a house there. I’m not so sure about that. 
We also talked about his job and mine.  He’s up for his annual review at the beginning of July and will then get his annual raise, so at this point it would be silly to take a job until then. I’m contractually obligated to the hospital until February.    He only signed a 9 month lease, so he’d be free of that next April.  I told him I’d like to have a late Spring/early Summer wedding, but that I needed time to plan, so he can’t be dragging his feet. 
I reminded him that he promised me last June that he’d be ready this June.  And he smiled and said that I promised I’d stay in B’ton until this June.  I told him that he could have stopped me.  He said he thought I’ve been happier here.  Which is true to a certain extent-  I would be happiest if we were together. 
So now I’m still trying to be patient, but after our conversation, I’m feeling as though something will happen imminently. I’m not sure if that’s worse or better.  🙂 

May 29, 2007

Birthday recap

Filed under: Cheesepuff,Love & Relationships,Ringwatch 2007,The Fam — by corazondeswiss @ 6:48 pm

Thanks for the wonderful birthday wishes everyone!  I had a great birthday and weekend.  I had to get ready early and head out to pick up my nephew for my mom who was stuck at work, so I got a little time in with my boy on my way to work.  He’s so happy when he first wakes up!  One of my co-workers brought me a cookie cake, and a card with a scratch off lotto ticket.  Thursday evening I went to “The Ranch” and had drinks with some of the girls that I work with.  My mom joined us and we had dinner before heading home. When I got home, I opened the cards/package that had arrived prior to my birthday.  (I told you I was weird about it.)  In my case it was a good thing since my mom had not bought me any presents because she figured she had until Sunday when the family dinner occurred. 
Friday I worked a shorter day and CP arrived that afternoon.  We had dinner with my family and watched some movies at home. On Saturday we spent the morning at home helping out some (my mom had her monthly girlfriend dinner that evening at our house) and my nephew had stayed the night.  CP and I left in early afternoon to see the new Pirates of the Caribbean movie at the newly built theater on the beach followed by dinner at Bonefish Grill where I indulged in a couple of very tasty Hpnotiq martinis.  We came home and took a dip in the hot tub.  Sunday, we skipped out on church and went to the Titanic artifact exhibit.  If it comes to your town, you should go see it-  when you go in, they give you a ticket with information on a real passenger.  At the end of the exhibit you find out if your passenger lived or died.  My passenger and CP’s both lived. 
Sunday evening was my family birthday dinner. We went to the family owned restaurant where I worked in high school.  Headed home for birthday cookie (which I escaped with NO icing on my nose, thank goodness!) and I opened my presents- My brother, sis-in-law and nephew gave me a gift card to Books A Million, my sister gave me a decorated photo frame with pix of our Gator game last fall, my parents gave me a new Vera Bradley bag, a blown glass heart necklace with matching earrings and 2 new pairs of Rainbow flipflops (black and brown), CP gave me a gift card to NineWest (new shoes here I come!), electronic Sudoku, a mini speaker for my iPod, and Gator serving pitcher (I’m now started on my collection!)  And NO ring.
Yesterday we went to the beach. And applied sunscreen badly.  But I also used the time to talk to CP about where we’re going.  And it appears wherever we may be going, it will be sometime in the next year (!!!!).  I’ll believe it when I see it. 

So, there you have it boys and girls, the birthday recap- lots of shoes, handbags, jewelry, 2 cookie cakes and 1 happy 20-something girl. 

May 21, 2007

Water water everywhere and not a drop to drink.

Filed under: Ringwatch 2007 — by corazondeswiss @ 8:56 pm

I’m getting a bit melancholy because my birthday is rapidly approaching. I am hoping that this one will be better than last year.  Last year I cried.  Twice.  Once because I hated the birthday gift my grandmother sent me.  Once because I was sad about the fact that I spent the evening out with a couple of people I didn’t know (and one I did and is one of my favorite people).  And because it was just another reminder of what I didn’t have.  It also didn’t help that my best friend had her first baby 2 days before my birthday and my brother was expecting his first baby only 3 months later.  That sort of compounded it all for me. 
I’m also a bit melancholy from attending the employee picnic at the waterpark.  All the young happy families playing in the kiddie area, the couples walking by holding hands. And I was alone.  Which is one of the reasons I sometimes stay home from these events.  Its hard. 
I guess my birthday’s impending arrival brings it all back for me- the timeline I had figured out for myself. I certainly thought that CP and I would be married by now.  And enjoying our newlywed status for a couple of years before we started a family.  But every day, week, month, year changes that.  I know, I know a timeline is a stupid idea.  Obviously I am a shining example of how that totally doesn’t work.  And it seems that around this time, I get blaring reminders of what others have, and I so desperately want. 
Which makes me very very very very very close to providing CP with an ultimatum, which I really don’t want to do.  But I think I am beginning to run out of patience. 

May 7, 2007

Vented

Filed under: Cheesepuff,Ringwatch 2007 — by corazondeswiss @ 6:22 pm

Its time for my irregularly scheduled breakdown and and frustration to do with CP, our relationship and its usual state. 
What brings it on…my rapidly approaching birthday (I’m going to be 28!)…just had our 4th anniversary…2 (count them 2!!) couples we know who are younger than we are, and haven’t been together any longer than we have just gotten engaged… 
I should be happy for them. I am happy for them, but I am also jealous. Not envious, jealous, green eyed monster jealous.  So jealous I can hardly see straight. Because I want to be them. I want be having engagement parties and bridal showers and planning our wedding. And our life. 
But I’m not.  I’m here.  CP’s girlfriend of 4 years. Waiting for my life to move to the next stage.  Still.  And so frustrated I can’t even express it. 

April 30, 2007

Jax

Filed under: Cheesepuff,Love & Relationships,Ringwatch 2007 — by corazondeswiss @ 8:40 pm

CP and I went to Jax this weekend for a get away.  We stayed at the Hyatt Regency Riverfront.  (CP paid for the hotel bill and to valet my car both days)- it was my anniversary present. 
Pillowtop mattress, down pillows, view of the city…
I did start out the weekend by getting loast and missing my exit for the hotel.  But eventually made it there.
Saturday morning we had breakfast in the hotel restaurant (fantastic breakfast buffet) and went to the room to decide what to do with our day.  We decided on the zoo, which was interesting because we both noticed that there seemed to be a disproportionate number of bratty children (and their bratty parents) at the zoo.  I made CP promise me that we would not be having any bratty children.  He said no, and if they were it would be due to the Corazon genes.  That earned him the stink eye.  We’ve been to several theme parks and have not seen that many bratty children in one place.
And fortunately we put on sunscreen before we went into the zoo since I recently was burned when at a concert with my sister.  We were there longer than I anticipated, but had a good time.  I’m impressed because CP even asked me to give him some headache medication to put in his pocket because I will (typically) suffer a headache when we go out like that.  He even smiled at me and said “I’m figuring out how you work.” 🙂  
We went to the room for a while to rest.  Headed back out to the Landing for dinner which was quite tasty.  Walked there a while, and made our way back to the room.  We toyed with the idea of renting a movie from the hotel, but ended up watching “The School of Rock”, it was one of those movies that’s so bad its good.  CP told me he had more fun watching me watch the movie than he did watching the movie. 
We slept in on Sunday and had lunch at another restaurant on the Landing before we headed to the Museum of Science and History.  (My sister tells me we are nerds because we did that- I like to remind her that we’re not 21 anymore and baking in the sun, shopping and clubbing isn’t our scene.) Whatever.  We liked it.  We parted ways after the museum and headed for our respective places.  The city was covered in a haze and smelled of smoke from a wildfire that has been burning in south Georgia for 2 weeks.  It finally cleared when I got about 50 miles west of Jax. 
All in all a good weekend, just too short (as they all are!) And still no ring…

April 5, 2007

On the defensive side…

Filed under: Cheesepuff,Love & Relationships,Ranting and Raving,Ringwatch 2007 — by corazondeswiss @ 8:44 pm

Not long ago I wrote about my mom’s comment at the family reunion and being frustrated with her…Yesterday my co-workers were asking about my relationship at lunch and I got a little bothered by it.  It seems like I am always having to defend my choice to be with CP, but be long distance.  Let’s be fair here, I am not the only one who makes decisions in this relationship.  And I have always tried to talk to him about taking a new job- especially this last one because I moved to take it and moved further away. 
But I was very unhappy where I was and moving home helps me big time financially.  I’m not paying rent, I can pay off my credit card debt and only owe on my car and school loan.  And I can also pay more on my car and get that debt out of the way.  Especially since financial matters seem to be one of CP’s biggest worries about getting married.  So I moved. 
I told CP last night I am so tired of defending things.  No matter how well meaning people are, or if they are just interested and trying to understand, I am tired of it.  It really annoys me when people ask me, “Why didn’t you move there?”  Why didn’t I move there?  Because I’m trying to save money, not spend it.  Because I don’t believe in living together before marriage.  Because if I did and we lived together then what impetus would he have to change things.  And you know what, while I am at it, why the hell does everyone think I have to move?  Why can’t he move to be with me?  Why does everyone think that I’m the one resisting marriage?  Even CP’s co-workers have asked me when I’m going to marry him.   Hell if I know, your guess is as good as mine.  The person who WANTS to be in the drivers seat here, won’t freakin’ tell me anything.  People, if it were up to me, I’d be Mrs. CP right now.  I wouldn’t be on the interweb complaining about why I’m not engaged or married.
It’s frustrating because everyone seems to think I can do something about it and that by now something should have happened already.  And they all think its so easy to say CP, propose or I’m out of here.   
I know that I’m especially sensitive because our anniversary was Tuesday, and I really really really really thought we’d already be engaged.  And because I told CP last June that he had a year to get his shit together.  And I’m getting scared that I will have to make good on that.  Honestly, I get ill when I think about breaking up with him.  I’m getting teary just typing all this.  Its NOT what I want to do.  I don’t want to be the kind of girl who has to make threats and give ultimatums in order to get what she wants.  I hate that I am turning into that girl.  Because I feel as if I have no choice.  I have been as patient as I know how.  And you know what else interweb?  I really hate it when people tell me to tell him “Propose or I’m moving on”  Like its that easy.  I’ve just invested 4 years of my life in this man and this relationship.  And I want to keep investing in it, because I love this man and I want to spend the rest of my life with him. 
Sorry to rant at length about all this (again).   

April 3, 2007

Happy Anniversary to me…

Filed under: Cheesepuff,Love & Relationships,Ringwatch 2007 — by corazondeswiss @ 9:30 pm

Hola readers.  Well, Happy Anniversary to me, I won $50 from CP’s office March Madness Pool (I came in 2nd place, 2 points behind the winner).  And the Gators won their second basketball title in a row, with the same 5 starters.  Woohoo, GO GATORS!!
Nothing exciting to report on the anniversary front.  CP had a design review for work today and has worked the last 9 days in a row.  (65 hours last week, I’m thinking overtime money could buy me an engagement ring!)  So I did not receive one for my anniversary.  I sent CP an e-card and ordered his present tonight.  (I know, I’m slow!)  But I also got his Easter package together today and will have my mom ship it tomorrow. 
Speaking of Wacky Wednesday, I will probably miss the post.  My bestest friend from college is visiting her parents (they recently moved about 2 hours from me) so I am meeting her halfway for dinner tomorrow night (will also get to see her husband and her most adorable baby 🙂  So yay.  Which makes for a late night for me.  But worth it to see some of my most favorite peoples. 
For some reason, I am glutton for punishment and I have agreed to work a 1/2 day this Saturday and on the 21st.  The only thing I can say, is that its easy money because they don’t require daily notes on their patients, and I get paid big bucks to work there.  The director has offered that I can come in and do a couple of evals or missed treatments after I work at the hospital on the weekdays, but honestly, no thanks.  After I’ve worked 8 hours at the hospital, the last thing I want to do is go work somewhere else for a couple of hours.  Its not like I really need the money with all I am saving by living at home right now. 
I looked at a little house today that is for sale in the general area I’d like to live.  For the price I decided the location isn’t good enough and I don’t think I can get the money back out of it.  And I don’t want to get stuck with one or be upside down when I sell it.  I’ll keep looking for now.  I’m hoping to pay off my credit card debt first (shouldn’t be too much longer!), before I start mortgage shopping.  And I need to figure out my retirement stuff. 
How very grown up of me.  Would someone please tell me where to turn in my grown up card?  I want to be a kid again!
Well I’m off to get the laundry out of the dryer and call CP to wish him good night. 

March 14, 2007

Weekend Update with Swiss and CP- Sunday Edition

Filed under: Cheesepuff,Love & Relationships,Ringwatch 2007,The Fam — by corazondeswiss @ 9:20 pm

Sunday…
Woke up around 8ish due to Spring Ahead.  HATE Spring Ahead (for the record CP really hates it this year since it fell on his birthday and he was cheated out of an hour of his birthday).  My mom made waffles for breakfast (aside: she only cooks like that when we have guests. Don’t get too jealous).  Then we showered and went to church. 
And during the sharing of the peace, someone from John’s church in his hometown, walked up.  John’s family belongs to a small church, but his hometown is a major city, so the chances that someone here would be from his church are well, slim to none.  Especially after he told us that this woman and her daughter have no car, the daughter is around our age, but was homeschooled and has pretty much no marketable skills (Aside, the daughter had some weird hairdo that involved a bun on top of her head AND a braid down her back.  What’s up with that?).   During the rest of the service I could feel them staring at us.  Anyway, CP talked to them after church and then we went to pick up his birthday cake and got some groceries.  We finished at the store and went to restaurant in the same shopping center and as we’re walking across the parking lot we hear “CP!” and its this girl from the church.  Whoever had given them a ride to church also gave them a ride to the grocery store.  How random! So now, due to CP my mom and I have acquired church stalkers.  My dad says he’s not going to sit with us anymore so they won’t stalk him. (He was totally kidding.  I think.)
CP and I settled into watch “Flags of Our Fathers”  which my mom and I had attempted to watch during the first week I was home, but were both so tired we fell asleep.  It had some hard to follow parts, but it was a good movie overall.  Very sad.  It makes you think about how different things are today- especially with the recent press about VA hospital care- it is much better than it was after WWII!  I don’t want to say too much, because I don’t want to give away the movie. 
We went for a walk around the neighborhood before the family dinner and I got to tell CP about the houses and the families that live(d) in them.  Our house is one of the original 4-6 houses that were built out here and I am constantly amazed at how many neighbors we have now! 
We had a fun family dinner followed by cake, ice cream and presents.  CP got all the things he asked for: a wireless mouse for his new computer, a CD player for his desk at work, a wallet and a new shirt.  He said they were all just right.  He was a good sport about the cake tradition of smearing the icing of your name and wearing it on your nose during the eating of your piece of cake (you can’t talk while eating your cake).  Thanks to my friend M for that tradition.  And I took his picture.  Which I’ll post eventually.  As soon as I get around to it. 
We went back to the hot tub Sunday night and then snuggled in for a make out session (again locking the door- lessons learned!) 
Monday morning I dragged out of bed early so I’d have time to eat breakfast with CP before I went to work.  He walked me out to the car and had me laughing as I pulled away (instead of crying).  So I’ve begun my work week and am over the hump now. 
P.S. STILL NO RING!!

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